lost

do you believe in psychics?

while i was in atlantic city, nj last weekend, i visited a boardwalk psychic
she wasn't a medium. she did tarot and palm readings.
for ten bucks, she read my energy.
and what she said wasn't good.
she said i have the energy of an older person, in their seventies. someone who has resigned themselves to "well, this is all life is." someone who looks back on their past memories with fondness, but who isn't making many new ones.
she said someone my age should have an energy that reads excited, with all of these opportunities and paths in front of me. someone with all of these wonderful things to do.
she talked about my strength, and my ups and downs. she talked about how i think i get the short end of the stick a lot, and she said i was right. i get treated like shit a lot. but she also said i allow it. she talked about my decision not to speak up. she said i can do it, but don't want to. she said i am too nice sometimes, and that gets taken advantage of.
she said that i have a lot of good karma.
when i laughed at that, she said i was blocking it.
she talked about a man, one that i've been thinking about recently. she said our souls were connected, but now they are not. she said that connection is broken.
when i asked if i could fix it, she said i could, but it would be difficult.
she said in the past 6 or 7 months something in me changed.
she said that i have been lost.

all of these things are so general in nature. they could apply to anything or anyone.
in my mind i know that. i know that a psychic reading is only what you make of it.

but i also know how i felt, and how i feel now.
and i know that she was right.